Self-awareness has limits in this: I know I need more sleep than I am getting. I know I can change it. And I do not.
Meditating has a positive impact on me. It is easy to do when life goes well. When I need it the most — when life is harder — that is when I just stop.
I know what care of this self looks like and I choose not to do it. And knowing that has not changed that yet.